6.19.2011

Day 15 Eve of All Eves


It's tomorrow.
Holly smokes.
Is this for real?
How did it happen?
So fast?
Already?!
wow.

Today was my last day. Tomorrow is going to fly by and soon enough the world we be graced by a new Miss USA. One woman's life will change forever. It's all in the hands of destiny... what's meant to happen will. I have done my ultimate best and from here on out all I have to do is show up & "go." Tonight is my last blog post from this particular journey, thank you for following and enjoying.

It's funny. When I reflect on the girl I was back on June 4th I see something incredibly different from who I am now. On the surface it's all the same. Same hair, same height, same eye color... but on the inside, within my mind, heart & soul I find new feelings and growth that I never anticipated. Truth be told on the night of June 4th I wasn't sure what I was doing here. I thought that I had mentally prepared as much as I could but I still found tiny doubts cultivating within me. As the days have progressed I've become even more self-aware (something I thought I had already mastered). I have gotten to know myself better than I would have ever imagined. Never in a million years would I have been so proud of my efforts and accomplishments. As I've told others "I even managed to shock myself."

I am so happy and content with the feeling I hold within my heart. I have zero regrets. None. I've genuinely enjoyed every second of this experience while still carrying myself like the titleholder I strive to be (at the state or national level). I have made lasting friendships, learned about others, reflected on gratitude of my blessings (friends & family what! what!) and enjoyed truly unique experiences. I refined old skills and even developed new ones (getting on an escalator in 4 inch heels?  or walking down a flight of stairs without looking down?). I can't say that I would have done a single thing differently.... honestly. So whatever happens tomorrow night I can rest my head tonight & every night knowing that I did everything I could within my control and destiny cannot be reconfigured.

I hope you all know how truly inspired you have made me. Your kind and genuine words have shown me that the human race is full of love and greatness. Every one of you has touched my heart in some way..... whether you sent me a card or wrote on my wall or even just added one more viewer to my blog counter. Thank you for being my motivation and for helping me challenge myself, grow, and discover life. I know that nothing in my life would have been possible without you and you and you.

I can't wait to hop back onto Happy Brittany and blog about my next chapter.... which is yet to be determined. Usually I'm 2-steps ahead of myself but I'm actually (&oddly) pretty excited about the unknown.

I hope you find time to tune into NBC tomorrow night at 6pm PST. The show is going to be insane. On top of that I hope that through the energy of you watching I can make you proud and "happy."

I know, I'm blessed, so so blessed,





Stay tuned....more to come.....

12 comments:

  1. Brittany,
    Fantástico…
    mi inglés es péssimo… Leí solamente un poco…
    pero sus palabras en el Blog… Son inspirers magníficos…
    Éxito siempre… Felicitaciones.

    James Navarro su admirador brasileño…

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  2. I've always admired your positive outlook on the most nerve wrecking situations.You're gonna be awesome tonight Brittany!! Good luck!!

    -Toni

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  3. Hey Brit!

    I know you won't read this until it is all said and done but I wanted you to know that you were in my thoughts and prayers! I am sure my mom cheered twice as loud since I couldn't be there. I am excited to see where life takes you next! Hopefully we will see each other soon now that I live in Colorado! I miss you!

    Love,

    Lindsey

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  4. Good luck Brittany! Watching tonight and praying for you!

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  5. OMG I seriously got chills when they called New Mexico with the most votes! You deserve it. You really do; thanks for being all that you are!!

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  6. watching and cheering for you tonight! You look gorgeous and have my vote! :) Loving your blog, btw.

    xoxo
    stephanie
    thehowardsbeautifulmess.blogspot.com

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  7. Hi Brittany,
    I know you won't read this until after the pageant (I am sitting at home waiting for the broadcast to begin in about 5 minutes). I am so glad that I have gotten to know you the past couple of years. I wish you nothing but the best in your days to come, no matter whether those days are as Miss USA, Miss Universe, Miss NM, or Miss Toll...You are a wonderful woman and I will enjoy seeing what your future brings to you. Blessings to you always,
    Debbie J.
    Rocky View Elem.

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  8. Way to go tonight!You still wear the crown!
    Much love from another Zeta Tau Alpha sister
    ZLAM

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  9. What a great website. Congrats on Top 15! I'm still watching the second half!

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  10. Kudos on the pageant tonight! I looked up your site after they talked about it on the broadcast!

    Congratulations! You are gorgeous!

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  11. You did so great last night! Love that Jenna told me about your blog! It's awesome! Excited for what's in store for you next!! http://www.stylemepretty.com/2011/06/20/texas-hill-country-wedding-by-aric-casey-photography/

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  12. Brittany, you made every Zeta proud tonight. You should know by winning the fan vote, that you are America's Queen. At least you will always wear Zeta's crown.

    Zeta love from Georgia

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